Right, because I'm an idiot ...
I'm not trolling. Why is it not believable? This is a nightmare to me.
Is it not obvious that this situation is why I joined?
Originally Posted by yitzchak
You don't sound like an idiot, just inexperienced and naive.
Listen to the one thing EVERYONE replying is saying: MOVE ON.
It's simple. Not everyone is nice in this world, and it happens across all walks of life. You were getting played for easy money. It was safe for her over the internet. Once there is physical contact, it much more risky for her. She will never meet you at this point. MOVE ON!
Forget friendship with an escort. That's not why they provide the services they provide. Meet one, lose your virginity then have sex with a few more for good measure. That will help you build confidence.