Until I got into the hobby I was still very sexually inexperienced. However, I have been drawn to "the art of seduction" since I was a teen. I blame it on Billy Idol!! Really--Okay, just a little
But seriously, from the first time I saw the Rock The Cradle of Love video with the young girl seducing the older gentleman in the suit I was hooked. No pun intended! Later, what started as a way to make fast money ended up being less and less about financial gain.
I will share something personal that really opened my eyes. I took some time off, about 8 months approximately. I went completely straight. I needed to see what life was like being "normal" again. I slept with one guy err maybe two (civilians) during that entire time.
I started to notice that my fantasies were mostly about having sex with strangers, then ultimately fantasizing about providing. So, I asked myself...Do I just have a fetish for fucking strangers? Why am I thinking about sex with clients instead of civilians? My quest for answers about life and sexuality just became more questions!
I came up with this. I am a rebel. Always have been. Part of being a rebel, for me, is questioning authority, religion and social/sexual norms. It's no secret Americans are and have been living in the stone age sexually. I just refuse to live that way.
We wake up and work for the man every day, are away from our children and spouses. We work at jobs we dislike to buy shit we don't need and save/work long enough to retire to die not too many years after that. And on and on. No thank you.
All that being a provider encompasses makes me feel alive and well. We are so disconnected these days. The excitement, the unknown, the thrill of a little danger, the freedom of time. That in and of itself is seductive enough. Add all the hot sex without any entanglements.. Who the hell wouldn't want to do this? I pity the bored housewives that want to let their inner slut out, but can't or won't.