In all seriousness like most things in life you get out of this what you put into it. I spent a couple months lurking reading researching; following the migration patterns of the local salmon, Troll feeding schedules, and the FOTM stampedes before I dipped my toe in.
you say you made some errors, and burnt a few bridges, but nothing so bad that there are alert threads about you. So I suggest if you do want to continue to seek experience in this. find someone else and make new mistakes with that one
FWIW in my experience most ladies are in fact very forgiving with missteps in protocols, and the ones that aren't are easily replaced.