Chances are I will regress and give in to desire in the future, but I genuinely do want to stop. Originally Posted by lots2020Are your encounters just so good that you can't get enough of it?
or is it the thrill seeking of it that drives you?
I quit so many times before. It wasn't until I figured out why I was doing it that I was able to walk away in a healthy manner (not villifying it...I could do it again, I just am able to choose not to). When I was being honest with myself, the effort required by ME to have a good time wasn't worth it on the women I was seeing. The more and more I did, the less and less attractive the providers made it (being a headache to setup, not all that fun to be with, the money spent, etc)
I'm feeling really paranoid. If anything, I jusy want some reassurance if there is any. Originally Posted by lots2020paranoid of WHAT?
deny everything all the time (even if you did do it)
gaslight the accuser and force them to prove it
even when they prove it, continue to deny it.