Mission impossible

I sounds to me like you need more help than we or the ladies can offer. Good luck!

Intimacy ... clearly what the hole is ... what that really means is another story

I sounds to me like you need more help than we or the ladies can offer. Good luck! Originally Posted by Goin Postal

That is definitely the cold, hard truth.... : )

"Those that are always looking for anew, do so for they can not repeat" from my mentor.

"I don't know why I have a hard time revisiting providers... I guess I walk into each encounter hoping it will fill a hole in my heart, and sometimes it does for a short time. (And during those moments, I know I have said things and made promises that I should not have.) But when I walk out, the hole is still there. So, I look to the next." from you

I do not know if this was to my post with the first line in this post. Or to Hanna's post. Maybe both. I see maybe Chloe post gives a hint.

When I was 20 something. A provider I saw about 5 times told me on the last date she would not see me again. Reason she gave was I made her feel like a hooker. I reread this thread and your review of Kanday. And want to thank you for I now know how I did her wrong after all this time. I wish I knew how to tell you, but I do not. You need to find the answer for yourself. Good luck, hope you find it.

edit: I'm 50 something now.

When I was 20 something. A provider I saw about 5 times told me on the last date she would not see me again. Reason she gave was I made her feel like a hooker. I reread this thread and your review of Kanday. And want to thank you for I now know how I did her wrong after all this time. I wish I knew how to tell you, but I do not. You need to find the answer for yourself. Good luck, hope you find it. Originally Posted by offshoredrilling

This is incredibly insightful ... and while I was always respectful and kind during a meet, and always looking for a genuine connection, I was too screwed up myself to offer a genuine connection in return that lasted more than a few minutes.... I think I wasn't honoring the gift of companionship that so many incredible people have offered... And I am sorry if I cheapened them in any way.

So, I think the path is pretty clear for me. Not only am I too messed up for a real relationship, I am also too messed up for the hobby...

Go figure.

Time for me to take a step back and be by myself for a while.

If you are not happy with yourself and your life then no lady is going to make you happy.

IMHO, it looks like to me that you just need to give yourself some time to heel from your divorce. That is no easy task, but over time it does get better. Get yourself back to feeling like the old you in happier times. Do things that you used to enjoy before the relationship and that may help you with the over all picture?

Writer,

Things will get better after your divorce. Focus on what's important and the rest will take care of itself. No small task, but that is what you should do. I have found it best to keep my expectations low of every provider I've ever seen. It's temporary relief, not a life solution IMHO....but everyone has their own angle.

Hang in there.

... and while I was always respectful and kind during a meet, and always looking for a genuine connection, Originally Posted by EasyWriter1967

"and always looking for a genuine connection,"

I am having a hard time with "looking for a genuine connection". As I have a friendship with a few providers. And have crossed that line, after years seeing them many times. There where more that I saw many times that never got past p4p. And was not looking for more than p4p. But I do enjoy it when also friends. More can come out of the hobby, than just the hobby. But looking for it , or pushing for it naaaaaa. Its a hobby keep it to lust. I may be or have been friends with a few providers, just keep the sex part to lust.

Ok a provider that I am friends with ask me to take her shopping. I did and had a great time, no fee no sex. Went dancing another time, after I wanted a little bit, and that part p4p.

SexyGabrielle in the thread "age limit" posted she did not like to see younger guys. That they start to have feelings after only a few times see them. So a few younger guys where "looking" for more than what it is.

It is nice to be friends with a provider. Looking for that in a provider is not right. IMHO. And as conner11 stated "I have found it best to keep my expectations low of every provider I've ever seen." Its a hobby.

If you've got a hole in your heart, I suggest you see a doctor immediately!

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