help me get this feeling out

This whole thread. LOL

What she does with someone else isn't your business, this is her business tho. So you either retire her, find a new girl (you're to involved) or suck it up and never mention this again Originally Posted by Princess Kimber

Exactly what she said! Feelings???? You need to get your feelings all the way in check! You don’t catch feelings in this business. You can like a person all you want, but the minute you starting talking about feelings, you’re a problem.

I have been seeing my ATF massage lady for 5+ years now and we have a pretty close relationship. It took me years and years of seeing her (and lots of begging) to finally get her to do BBBJ on me.

Because of that, I felt that I have been the only one that she does this to and she's also adamant that she doesnt do it to anyone else.

Now recently, I have secretly found out from her coworkers that she performs BBBJ all the time to her clients.

Now, I'm getting many extreme feelings that I cant get out of my head.

#1 is the lying that she's done to me.
#2 is the jealousy feeling I get that many other men are getting the same special treatment that I thought only I was getting.
#3 is the safety/cleaniness factor. Does it all have to end now that I found out about her doing others?

I know she's just a person who constantly gets naked for others and do HJ+ for a living and I shouldn't let it get to me.

but its bothering me. anyone else go through the same or have ideas to resolve this? Originally Posted by weezyfbaby

You aren't special. You're a means to an end......partial car note, partial rent, etc.


She does her job well as she makes you feel special, but at the end of the day, you're just another john.

What’s her name and contact info? I will go get a massage and HE, then I will let you know if she blows me or not!!

Digits please

Bro, I had to get to a point where I no longer believed the "You're the only one I do this for" line. You can pretty much guarantee she's lying to you if that's said.

A lying hooker? This is outrageous.

First fluk her co workers.... They sound like coniving females.. Heres the real question when your with her does SHE make you feel as though your the only one?? Does she take her time and make you feel special in everyway you wish for your atf too.then let it go a pair of hating lips can say anything. Next time tell her co workers stfu and show some evidence if not bye

^You just described every provider with good IOP. LOL.

I have been seeing my ATF massage lady for 5+ years now and we have a pretty close relationship. It took me years and years of seeing her (and lots of begging) to finally get her to do BBBJ on me.

Because of that, I felt that I have been the only one that she does this to and she's also adamant that she doesnt do it to anyone else.

Now recently, I have secretly found out from her coworkers that she performs BBBJ all the time to her clients.

Now, I'm getting many extreme feelings that I cant get out of my head.

#1 is the lying that she's done to me.
#2 is the jealousy feeling I get that many other men are getting the same special treatment that I thought only I was getting.
#3 is the safety/cleaniness factor. Does it all have to end now that I found out about her doing others?

I know she's just a person who constantly gets naked for others and do HJ+ for a living and I shouldn't let it get to me.

but its bothering me. anyone else go through the same or have ideas to resolve this? Originally Posted by weezyfbaby

She is an escort, MONEY is her reason to provide. She is not looking for LOVE!!!

Every hobbyists goes through this, either cut your ties with her or play along.

Fyi, she's not an escort but I guess that really doesn't make a difference

Fyi, she's not an escort but I guess that really doesn't make a difference Originally Posted by weezyfbaby

She's not an "escort" but you mentioned the word "clients". If she has clients she's apparently advertising somehow.

You can put her on retainer but again that more than likely wouldn't work. She's gonna do what she's gonna do for that extra coin and she doesn't have to tell you anything. She's actually smart in that regard.

All who have basically said that you have caught feelings are correct. You can continue to deal with her or move on.

I have always like Kerwil's comments.
He always makes clear statements that make sense

I don't always agree with his politics but I'm not here for politics.

Fyi, she's not an escort but I guess that really doesn't make a difference Originally Posted by weezyfbaby

I know it hurts but you've got to throw your burdens upon him...and let him carry you. For the lord is thy shepherd.

Now as for the issue at hand i can see how it would hurt. You gave her 5 + good yrs of your life and if yall got pretty close as you say then I'm sure you treated her very good...but in 5+ yrs she never thought to even attempt to sniff your dick. There could be one of two things going on here...1 is that you could be nasty and yo dick stank...or 2 she saw something good in you that made her play the game. Let me explain. Girls do this alot when they think they've found a guy that is the complete package. They will play coy and passive aggressive thinking that they need to continuously show you a mild side a side that says I may be a little naughty but I'm different...and so you didnt get the royal treatment..she was saving you up for a rainy day for when she either needs a major favor or starts to look for a potential mate that would accept her. If that's not it for some reason she wanted your acceptance and approval so you were the odd man out. She saw some potential in you and so she made her goodies off limits to you.

I know it sounds weird but you have to ask yourself and it's a valid question. If after all these years she was blowing fucking everyone else then why not me?

Your case sounds sad indeed. while you're going there talking and developing a close bond the next cat dropping creampies. most girls scope after each session so there's nothing nasty about what she's doing unless you're eating the creampies.

My advice is stop trying to impress her. You talk too much and begging? You did yourself in with the begging. PLEASE BABY PLEASE once you started begging she couldnt do it then because you were guaranteed to come back...

I have always like Kerwil's comments.
He always makes clear statements that make sense

I don't always agree with his politics but I'm not here for politics. Originally Posted by tbone2u

Then why even mention the word. If you agree just say that and keep it moving. I digress... but I like Kerwil and I agree with his politics