We have moments and sometimes we have days.
I have a hard time telling myself that this is exactly like any other job - it isn't.
It's way freaking different.
When I meet someone - male, or female, friend, or lover - I usually smile.
{{When I smile, my brain begins to smile.}}
{Even if I don't feel like it, I become happy.}
[[Having sex is also going to trigger other happy sensors in my body, even if it's just going down on someone and watching them climax.]]
xoxo I love it, and yes an A**hole in the mix can downright sour that and any time you have to spend with them in the room xoxo
Twice in my life, shortly after starting a new [RW] job I got heartbreaking news. These were Front Of The House positions and basically I was the face for the business, I was the first to greet guests. I felt miserable, I should have been curled up in the fetal position, sobbing, randomly calling on my besties and female family members to gimme sympathy, gorging on chocolate, and ice cream, and fast food and junk, with my phone turned to silent and the blinds closed. Instead, I had to go to work, I had to pick my head up, I had to smile, I had to speak, and I had to be around people who didn't care or want to hear that I felt bad, I was literally ill, or that I didn't feel like performing at my best at work. When it was slow, or I didn't have enough work to distract me I'd gaze off and it wouldn't be easy to try to fight back tears. Forcing myself to do what I had to do ended up being fun in the face of my pain. Those two jobs, I thought later, saved me. They saved me from being able to wallow in self-pity and misery - straight up. Saved me, probably from gaining an extra 50 lbs also :P
When it comes to the hobby, if I am feeling super "NO I just can't" -ish then I will wait, if it is for a returning customer though, I pretty much would get over it and make being with them when they need me a top priority, and providing the best GFE I can. Most likely, going to the date will result in me feeling much happier.
I like watching lesbians.
I mean thespians.
Well, both.
Originally Posted by emptywallet
Ditto! Lol!