thanks for the reply's. I'm not trying to look for trouble, just wanting to "take care of my own needs". Getting a divorce is not really an option right now - finding a way to get some TLC when the opportunity presents itself. Yes, it's really stupid.
If only there was a provider that had a baby sitter in one room while I got my needs attended to in the next room... I could have just about any day, any time to myself. lol
Thanks for all the feedback-