Confusion

I'm just trying to forget about this. I don't want to dwell on it any longer. It's been eating me alive. After I wrote the last several posts above, I had a long dream. I don't remember what it was about, but I spoke to a lot of different people within the dream. When I awoke, I felt reset and like I could move on from this. I don't want to have a negative perspective of women and myself. I wish I could erase my memory. I wish I never met her and none of this ever happened, because I'll remember it forever. I didn't want it to be such an awful experience to look back on. I kept trying and hoping it would get better, but it's not going to get any better. I have to move on.

I agree that I'm a little crazy. Not clinically, but eccentric. I know there is definitely something a little bit odd about me, but if you really knew me, you'll know that I strive to be a good person. I'm a funny guy, but I've never told a joke. I've fought a few times, but I've never thrown a punch. The only person I've ever hit was myself.

I do not understand what I do. What I would, I don't, and what I wouldn't, I do.
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Time to drive into an abutment, or off a cliff, or eat some lead.
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It is time to close this baby down!! The OP has Hi-Jacked his own thread and is clearly sitting in the fetal position in his closet with a foil hat on his head.... Originally Posted by Ed Highlight
hmm how do you hijack your own thread?
Time to drive into an abutment, or off a cliff, or eat some lead. Originally Posted by pyramider
Yes. Thank you for your advice.
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I am a helpful fucktard.
I made all of this up. I don't know and I've never spoken to Nadia. She's probably a great person and a terrific escort. I chose a random person to keep the LIES going. I made all of this up for the LOLZ. You all just got TROLOLOLOLOLED. LAUGHING OUT LOL!!! Modz should ban me now, but I'll just create a new IP and CUM BLACK! YOU JUST GOT PUNK'D!
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But you can still off yourself.
Not really we knew this was a fake post..
I'm going to get back into reading the Bible and building a relationship with the Christ Jesus! Hosanna!

Everything I did was definitely not what Jesus would do. Let us drink, feast and be merry! For Jehovah of Hosts is king in mount Zion forever!
I'm going to get back into reading the Bible and building a relationship with the Christ Jesus! Hosanna!

Everything I did was definitely not what Jesus would do. Let us drink, feast and be merry! For Jehovah of Hosts is king in mount Zion forever! Originally Posted by yitzchak
Oh Boy....a fake conversion, like your posts...
I made all of this up. I don't know and I've never spoken to Nadia. She's probably a great person and a terrific escort. I chose a random person to keep the LIES going. I made all of this up for the LOLZ. You all just got TROLOLOLOLOLED. LAUGHING OUT LOL!!! Modz should ban me now, but I'll just create a new IP and CUM BLACK! YOU JUST GOT PUNK'D! Originally Posted by yitzchak
You really had me going there....you....Don't you feel better now? You trickster!

yea