I started to notice that my fantasies were mostly about having sex with strangers, then ultimately fantasizing about providing. So, I asked myself...Do I just have a fetish for fucking strangers? Why am I thinking about sex with clients instead of civilians? My quest for answers about life and sexuality just became more questions!
Originally Posted by Scarlett Rossi
Yeah, I can fully empathize with you. Screw the Illusion of Passion, I struggle with the Illusion of Taboo/Kink/Slut when I'm in the middle of passion. Aside from the highest of chemistry vanilla sex, my brain truly needs the kink. Being a sex worker fulfills my need to feel a certain level of slutty while in bed so that everything under the sun tickles my specific triggers, even if it's as vanilla and sweet as the day is long.
Usually it takes a detailed fantasy in my head to get me off with the civvie boys, especially the ones who I'm seriously dating, especially if the sex is dull. The fastest fantasy scenario that gets me to my destination is pretending that I'm with a client. When I'm actually
with a client, it doesn't require pretending.
The civvie boys require too much work. 1) They see the sweet/soft side of me and want to date me and shut down when I voice my slutty concerns. Or 2) They see the slutty side of me and forget the whole "hey, I'm an interesting and giving woman who might want to cuddle after" bit. It's possible to find the right mix out in the wild, but the bar's been raised too high it seems and the one night stands make me grumpy.
I'm pretty excited to be back!