Guy if u havent notice this site will not help you with ur mental issues. Get off of this site, stop posting about how bad your life is and GO outside, breathe in some.fresh air, visit a homeless.shelter, any hospitals childrens ward, a domestic violence shelter. What I am.getting at is, get out of.you head and go help someone, give them your tiem and I promise you that you will put your.life in perspective. It is never as bad as your mind thinks.
If that doesnt work..do as THN says, go get some help!