Now I know I'm falling for a provider. But I don't know what to do.

Thanks Chaz.

RideFreeinTexas just posted a link (thank you ) to comments you made only ONE WEEK AGO and as he accurately points out it was quite clear at that time that the lady was less than enthralled with you. Those posting that this is abnormal stalker behavior are quite right and it would be in your best interest to get a grip Pronto! Look pal I love a good train wreck as much as the next person but this is going well beyond sick entertainment. What makes me such an expert? I practically invented fucking up with women, some hookers, some not. Shit I knocked up a stripper. It's taken me half a lifetime to graduate from total dumbshit to simply ignorant . Seriously RideFreeinTexas did you the most good by giving you rational words you should heed; your own.

Thanks guys! Thank ya'll for giving advice and being straight forward. I seem quite new here. But that's just because I don't like to post. I've seen over 40 providers by fay. And I'm only 26. Now I'm gonna answer some questions. Firstly, she doesn't make me feel I'm loved or wanted. But she told me I'm her real good friend and introduced me to another friend of her. She trusts me,she told me her real name, she told me about her past, her family. And she let me meet her two year old son! When that little guy smiled at me, I just felt so wonderful! Secondly, I always realize the fact that now while I'm typing she may be sucking another cock. But this is her job. She has records and she doesn't have other ways out. This cannot affect my crush for her. Thirdly, I know this is not true love. I'm not a highschool kid, I know what love means. But I just can't resist enjoying this feeling. It's even more wonderful than what my first love in college brought me. And somebody said this is lust. But it's not. I don't care what to do with her. I simply want to hold her in arms, to share joys and sorrow with her, and to see her face when I wake up in the morning. And when other providers contacted me, I turned them down, including those I used to see a lot.
When I hear Bruno Mars sings in his song "I'd rather catch a grenade for you", she is the first person who pops into my mind.
In the end, I know that my mind is not working normally. This is the first time in my life I feel that dream is better than reality. Maybe I need a vocation. But seriously, do I need to see a doctor? Is this a mental disease?

Kind of like when you obsessed so bad for weeks and wouldn't stop talking about wanting to grudge fuck Wulf Princess, huh?

Fffffffffffffiiiiiiiiiiirrrrrr rrrrrreeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!

To the OP: There's no sugar coating this - YOU'RE A CHUMP! Please, for the good of the Hobby, start jacking off more and not thinking about Miss Angel Face with the criminal record when doing it, too..Did you happen to think that if she hurts someone while behind the wheel of this rental car with your name on it, who is legally responsible?...Well, let me make this perfectly clear - IT'S YOU DIPSHIT!!
I'm not even going to touch the 2 weeks thing, the kid thing or the Dumplings. You're fucked up, plain and simple.

My God, I come back from Ban Land and the Fucktards are now Bat Shit Crazy! I'm seriously afraid to get my Premium Access back and read the craziness in the Men's Lounge. Originally Posted by ManSlut

Wanting to fuck someone and wanting to date someone are totally different things however since english and or comprehension are not your first language or skill, I wont hold it against you.

Also you have really a dirty mouth, a mad man/ lunatic is one that cant get his point across without using foul names. Why you saw the need to resort to names says alot about your class, which I figure is lacking.

Op...Run forest run, it seems you fall easy for females so simply go fuck another one and I am certain you will feel differently however if the feelings remain then maybe you have an obsessive nature which you probably need counseling to cure.

Badbanana,

I think you already know your answer, im simpathetic to your feelings but remember it is all an illusion.. Like going to disneyland, you don't reaaly go back intime for the Caribbean in the 1600's, but it feels real.

What you are feeling cant be true love, you only met her 2 weeks ago.

Take a step back, or you are going to learn a very expensive and painful lesson. Stupid people dont learn from their mistakes. Smart people learn from their mistakes. Wise people learn from other people's mistakes.

Be wise rather than just smart.

Good luck. Originally Posted by Luke Skywalker

Thanks Luke. But you know, I'm not a person who is easily into illusion. I'm not saying that she likes me. But I'm pretty sure I like her and I'd rather do anything for her....

C'mon man..............

Thanks Luke. But you know, I'm not a person who is easily into illusion. I'm not saying that she likes me. But I'm pretty sure I like her and I'd rather do anything for her.... Originally Posted by badbanana

Hey as long as you don't come on here crying that you got totally f*cked over, than I say go for it.

Thanks Luke. But you know, I'm not a person who is easily into illusion. I'm not saying that she likes me. But I'm pretty sure I like her and I'd rather do anything for her.... Originally Posted by badbanana

Also wait you like her but you dont know if she likes you? ..this isnt going to end well

Go fuck another woman. You'll forget this one as soon as you do.

Wanting to fuck someone and wanting to date someone are totally different things however since english and or comprehension are not your first language or skill, I wont hold it against you.

Also you have really a dirty mouth, a mad man/ lunatic is one that cant get his point across without using foul names. Why you saw the need to resort to names says alot about your class, which I figure is lacking.

Op...Run forest run, it seems you fall easy for females so simply go fuck another one and I am certain you will feel differently however if the feelings remain then maybe you have an obsessive nature which you probably need counseling to cure. Originally Posted by macbeth1000

Actually I dont really understand what he was talking about as I've just been speaking English for two years.
Anyway, it's not true that I fall easy for females. I've only fallen for three girls since my high school including this one.
I am thinking of seeing a doctor. But what's my problem? I shouldn't have fallen for a girl so rapidly and crazily? or I shouldn't have fallen for an escort? Will it make any difference if she is not an escort but a college girl?

Go fuck another woman. You'll forget this one as soon as you do. Originally Posted by Hercules

You think I don't know this? I tried. But it doesn't work. When I was fking Taylor, who is really hot 3 days ago, I closed my eyes and thought of this girl.

Hey as long as you don't come on here crying that you got totally f*cked over, than I say go for it. Originally Posted by Kayleehotchick

I'm not crying that I'm fked over. I just get some opinions to see if I'm insane, if my brain still works normally.

Thanks guys! Thank ya'll for giving advice and being straight forward. I seem quite new here. But that's just because I don't like to post. I've seen over 40 providers by fay. And I'm only 26. Now I'm gonna answer some questions. Firstly, she doesn't make me feel I'm loved or wanted. But she told me I'm her real good friend and introduced me to another friend of her. She trusts me,she told me her real name, she told me about her past, her family. And she let me meet her two year old son! When that little guy smiled at me, I just felt so wonderful! Secondly, I always realize the fact that now while I'm typing she may be sucking another cock. But this is her job. She has records and she doesn't have other ways out. This cannot affect my crush for her. Thirdly, I know this is not true love. I'm not a highschool kid, I know what love means. But I just can't resist enjoying this feeling. It's even more wonderful than what my first love in college brought me. And somebody said this is lust. But it's not. I don't care what to do with her. I simply want to hold her in arms, to share joys and sorrow with her, and to see her face when I wake up in the morning. And when other providers contacted me, I turned them down, including those I used to see a lot.
When I hear Bruno Mars sings in his song "I'd rather catch a grenade for you", she is the first person who pops into my mind.
In the end, I know that my mind is not working normally. This is the first time in my life I feel that dream is better than reality. Maybe I need a vocation. But seriously, do I need to see a doctor? Is this a mental disease? Originally Posted by badbanana

Seriously, if you aren't putting us on, you need to go see a psychologist.

I'm not crying that I'm fked over. I just get some opinions to see if I'm insane, if my brain still works normally. Originally Posted by badbanana

Go see a shrink and see what he says. It won't hurt to get a professional opinion.

Omg.....if this was coming from a woman, I would think she is the most pathetic doormat in the world.

Enjoy your life. Get used. Who cares. Just don't bring it to the board when shit hits the fan.