OK, my handle. A few years back there was a TV show I liked call "Lost". I always like the weirder shows like Lost, and Xfiles, even the old Twilight zone reruns. But back to "Lost". Within the show, there was a bit of love triangle around a character called Kate. Pictured below.
The show had really good character development, Kate was in a gray area of being good and bad. I thought she was really hot in the series.
There were too other male characters. One being "Jack" was basically a strait arrow. The other being "Sawyer", who was a con man. Most of the time in real life, I am Jack, but yet there is a side of me that is like Sawyer, or wants to be like Sawyer. Don't get me wrong in the that I am mimicking characters, but I found that I identified with both of these characters.
There both had an interest in Kate. It is interesting that the writers let them both tag her at different times for different reasons. After Kate jumped Sawyer's bones, Sawyer said "all you had to do was ask".
So anyway when I was trolling Ashley Madison date sight for married women a few years back, I thought of what I thought would be a clever handle, and seeing myself as combo, or wanting to be more like Sawyer, a combination of diametrically opposed personalities, I sort of deemed myself "lost" "for" "kate", and I made it all one word, so I have keeping the handle as sort an alter ego for several years now.