The marriage was no longer alive it was dead. The passion that was once there was gone. It faded along with the vague memories of the first kiss,the first hug and the first night together. I longed for the touch I so desired the feel of being loved not just in an ordinary way but a passionate way. I wanted that wild random sex we used to have before life took over. How I missed the excitement the unknown and most of all just feeling wanted. The days went by and it become less and less the love grew apart. I no longer desired him but no long wanted him or needed him. I wanted more and I needed more. I would dread seeing him and did not want to be around him. I stayed because I was so worried what others thought and not my own happiness. The years I wasted the time I can not get back.
There was a new guy at work he was cute and nice and made me want him. He gave me a reason to go to work. He gave me a reason to want more then I had. The flirting was nice it made me feel alive. It made me feel wanted and desired. I came to work and he was gone he transferred to another store. Damn my luck.
I walked into the local store one night and he was there. WTF this is not going to be good. I knew I would be making alot of trips for bread and milk. I wanted to touch his ass so much. I wanted to rip this clothes off right there in the produce department. I wanted sex in the backroom. I could not cross the line. I was married it is not right. I have to go home. Damnit, I want him but no I can not do this.
I would go home and fuck my husband not wanting him but using him. I wanted the other man but it was wrong. I would suck his dick but dream of the guy that I wanted. The sex became wild out of control. My husband loved it but I still was not happy. I wanted the hot young guy. I wanted his ass, dick and most of all I wanted him to kiss me..
I go in the store and we keep flirting and he starts asking me to meet him when he gets off work. I want too and how it hurts to say no. I know I would be so wet from thinking of him and wanting him. I know my nipples would get so hard and long for his touch. I wanted him to touch me and make love to me. I wanted his mouth against mine. Even now thinking of him makes my nipples get hard and my pussy wet.
It was my first day of my new job and I had to pass his home. I went by his drive and shit he was there pulling in unlocking the gate. I go up and do a u turn. I am just going to say hi. There is no harm in saying hi is it. I am sitting in my car and he walks up and leans in and we start talking. Man I need to go work. It is my first day. He leans further in the window. His hands touch my legs and moves up to my pussy. This is not good this is bad real bad. He leans in and kisses me and it starts out as a slow kiss then gets deep and his hands get tighter on my leg and up to my pussy. I want to say no but shit how do I. I tell him it is wrong and so on but his touch felt so good. I wanted him more now then ever. He gets in my car. We start kissing more and his hands felt so good against my body. We start undressing and I want him. It is in the middle of the day and we have to make it quick. He is in the passenger seat of my car. I climb over and get on top of him and start fucking him. How his dick felt so good going inside of me. I am going up and down and deeper and deeper. It felt so good and it felt so right. I leaned in to kiss him as I go down on top of his dick. I wrap my arms around him and pull him close. We finally cum. It seemed to last forever but it had to be quick. We get dressed and we go on our ways.
I wish I could say that we had alot of random moments back then but it was just once. I think of him everytime I pass by the drive to his parents home. I wonder does he remember that Nov day. If we see each other it is just a hug and we do not speak about it. I just figure I am a vague memory to him. We both have different lives but hopefully when he looks across his yard to his parents drive he remembers that day like it was yesterday. He was the guy that broke me and made me want so much more then I had with my husband. He was the guy that gave me the courage for my next affair.