I have a friend of mine that tours around in a band, and shes always telling me how lonely touring is. She says that even though shes surrounded by people that want to be around her, its only because they have other motives. I told her to Skype or call me whenever she feels lonely or just needs a friend. She calls, or text at times but she told me Skype was best for her because she can see me laugh at her fucked up stories, lol, and it keeps her grounded.
I think most people get lonely when they are away from something familiar for long periods of time. Its a screwed up world sometimes and it helps to have someone you can tell it too, even if its over video chat a million miles away.
Sunshine (best source of Vitamin D) is supposed to be really good for depression, as well as improved nutrition (lots of vegetables and fruits).
It can be very lonely. That's why I am staying very low-key and low-volume and always consciously staying in touch with my real world friends and life outside of the hobby as much as I can so I don't lose touch with reality and the real world. Always have other passions, hobbies and interests outside. I play my sports so much ... it's like my drug! I date in real life. Basically this hobby world is a very small fraction of my life and it doesn't define who I am.
I appreciate the support shown here by several of you. I cannot describe how much it lifts my spirits when total strangers take an interest; the revelation that someone (not family, because they pretty much have to) might actually care makes me a little less likely to do something drastic when the inevitable lows hit. More than one of you have sent PMs with very kind words of encouragement; I won't name you here but you know who you are, and I am truly grateful for your willingness to get involved and not just let me spiral.
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I didn't get my handle by accident. I really am a poet. I've written some very dark verse, typically when my emotions have bottomed out, but sometimes when I'm in a good mood I can actually create something worthwhile. During those times I try to write poetry that others will enjoy; to hear nice things or to read attaboys really lifts my spirits. So, in a shamless act of self-promotion, I'm going to ask anyone who is interested or enjoys poetry to check out The Poet's Thread in the Austin Sandbox, and if there's something you particularly enjoy, let me know. It'll make my day.