Now I know I'm falling for a provider. But I don't know what to do.

Thanks guys! Thank ya'll for giving advice and being straight forward. I seem quite new here. But that's just because I don't like to post. I've seen over 40 providers by fay. And I'm only 26. Now I'm gonna answer some questions. Firstly, she doesn't make me feel I'm loved or wanted. But she told me I'm her real good friend and introduced me to another friend of her. She trusts me,she told me her real name, she told me about her past, her family. And she let me meet her two year old son! When that little guy smiled at me, I just felt so wonderful! Secondly, I always realize the fact that now while I'm typing she may be sucking another cock. But this is her job. She has records and she doesn't have other ways out. This cannot affect my crush for her. Thirdly, I know this is not true love. I'm not a highschool kid, I know what love means. But I just can't resist enjoying this feeling. It's even more wonderful than what my first love in college brought me. And somebody said this is lust. But it's not. I don't care what to do with her. I simply want to hold her in arms, to share joys and sorrow with her, and to see her face when I wake up in the morning. And when other providers contacted me, I turned them down, including those I used to see a lot.
When I hear Bruno Mars sings in his song she is the first person who pops into my mind.
In the end, I know that my mind is not working normally. This is the first time in my life I feel that dream is better than reality. Maybe I need a vocation. But seriously, do I need to see a doctor? Is this a mental disease? Originally Posted by badbanana

Get a gun and shoot yourself in the head ASAP~

Badbanana,

You're not insane. But you are young. What you are feeling is normal for someone of your age and inexperienced, you also said somewhere that you only speak english for a couple of years. All of that adds to inexperience with life.

Remember my advice about being wise rather than smart? That still stands.

Take this from someone over twice your age, this will end up in a world of hurt. For you for sure. For her, perhaps. Sometimes the best help you can give is not to be too involved.

I understand your feelings, and they are noble feelings. Nothing wrong with treating a young girl like a human being and have empathy for her situation. You are confusing empathy with some kind of love. Take the advice of this old fart: In the end it will hurt.

You must be a good guy. But you need to be wise.

Best of luck man.

Luke Originally Posted by Luke Skywalker

Thank you sir. You hit the points. I think you're right that I'm confusing empathy with some kind of love. Hopefully I can calm down and get myself out of this both emotionally and financially after seeing the doctor. But if she needs, I'll always be there to help her like helping one of my other friends. And if things go well, I won't refuse to be with her just because she is a provider.

Dude, Please watch the movie, Body Heat, before you do this -- especially the speech by Mickey Rourke's character to his lawyer. But I'm with Ringo, you're gonna do this. And I hope you're just a chump and not really, truly in love. The former is a crash-and-burn situation, from which you might recover; the latter can cause permanent damage. What about you take a vacation from each other for, say, one month? Who knows, you might meet another lucky provider love interest in between. Originally Posted by Gonzo DFW

I'll watch that movie. And I'm seriously considering a long vacation.

Fuck all the nay-sayers, the heart wants what the heart wants.
Go for it, don't even look, just jump...she'll CATCH you!!!


(I'm seeing this play out as a long term troll, kinda like the duffus that supposedly married the "former" hooker and keeps popping back in to give us updates. Least we have THIS future former hookers profile!)

Actually I dont really understand what he was talking about as I've just been speaking English for two years.
Anyway, it's not true that I fall easy for females. I've only fallen for three girls since my high school including this one.
I am thinking of seeing a doctor. But what's my problem? I shouldn't have fallen for a girl so rapidly and crazily? or I shouldn't have fallen for an escort? Will it make any difference if she is not an escort but a college girl? Originally Posted by badbanana

May I ask how old are you? Have you been married before? and these three girls since high school you mentioned... did you date them or did you love them from afar?

Will set appoinent with a doctor tomorrow! Originally Posted by badbanana

What doctor? You mean a psychiatrist? Then please take Tessa with you if she is willing. Both of you need professional helps without delay!

I think my physician said the same thing as we were nearing the "final procedure" of a recent physical.......

Take the advice of this old fart:


In the end it will hurt.


Luke Originally Posted by Luke Skywalker

When I hear Bruno Mars sings in his song "I'd rather catch a grenade for you", she is the first person who pops into my mind.

Expand your musical horizons. Check out "Self Esteem" by The Offspring.

Also, don't take a Bruno Mars song as a model for life.

Oh now I'm thinking this a troll thread.

No body can be this retard and still type. Originally Posted by Kayleehotchick

I'm coming around to your way of thinking too. Far too many red flags. Funny how often I find myself nodding along with a post I read and then side scrolling(I surf the boards on a phone) and seeing your avatar. I like the way you think.

This might be a ploy to drum up business for this girl because I was tempted to check who this girl was and..... hmmm she doesnt look that bad. You know what they say..any publicity in the hooking business is free advertising.

What doctor? You mean a psychiatrist? Then please take Tessa with you if she is willing. Both of you need professional helps without delay! Originally Posted by andymarksman

I mean a psychologist. But I dont understand why take her? She is absolutely normal. She didn't do anything.

Since the we're on the subject of music, might I suggest "Oh no not you again " By the Rolling Stones. A Bigger Bang. Track #10, I believe you'll find the lyrics quite appropriate.

May I ask how old are you? Have you been married before? and these three girls since high school you mentioned... did you date them or did you love them from afar? Originally Posted by macbeth1000

I'm 26, never married. The second girl became my gf and we had been together for two years. The third one is Tessa...

Since the we're on the subject of music, might I suggest "Oh no not you again " By the Rolling Stones. A Bigger Bang. Track #10, I believe you'll find the lyrics quite appropriate. Originally Posted by TheRealJohnnyRingo

I've heard that before

OK ace I have a question for you, I read some of your earliest reviews where you obviously have a command of the English language, even articulate, then you post this absurd thread where you butcher the language even worse then my "Ringlish" , so what gives amigo. I also noticed your betrothed hasn't weighed in on this fiasco, so what gives? Good thing I was bored today and had nothing better to do than follow this ridiculous shit, otherwise I would be seriously pissed off. So spill it clown, what are you getting for this mega ad for this bimbo?

badbanana,
You should listen to what they are telling you here. If you are too "love" blind to see that, then good luck to you because you will find out the hard way down the path you are currently on. I know from personal experience.

Keep it on a business level and keep your emotion out of it.