Update for anyone interested. I decided to go with a solid L1 from my ATF on Thursday and then followed up with a more full service massage on Friday. Both had a high point and were great visits. I don’t know if it is the lack of a connection or what, but the second visit was awesome at the time, but as I was leaving I felt nothing. No post session high. Just empty. Might save money and lower risk and just visit my normal place, although that one also lacked the same precious energy and post feeling of bliss.
Maybe that is a sign that I am desensitized to this whole experience.
Originally Posted by BasicGuy
Having been ghosted by my SB, with whom I was absolutely in love with for almost four years (and, I thought, she me; don't get me started on the emotional, academic and financial investment in her and her family -- none of which, BTW, I regretted until I got ghosted) I am pondering a return to the hobby. But I remember all those times I left a session thinking, "I paid $x00 for that?" and all times I traversed the trail from the back bar at Bucks to the restroom and back with hundred-dollar bills protruding from my collar, only to leave the place with nothing but a hundred-dollar bar bill, and I have to wonder if the hunt, the uncertainty, the ratio of cost to value almost certainly closer to infinity than to 1, and I am coming to the conclusion that an empty office, high-speed internet and Pornuib are a better alternative.