Confessions of a Provider....

Hello everyone, theres something i have always wanted to put out in the open and get feed back on but just never thought it was something i should really tell. But after being locked up for 6 months i really would like to clue you in on my point of view.

When i got into this line of work i did it for the wrong reasons, i never really "needed" the money the way most providers do. I have a real job that is great. I went to college, and am actually now back in school majoring in psychology. But none the less i got into being a provider and ive loved it.

ive experienced the good the bad and the downright ugly but its made me a better person. i love meeting new people, and the life lessons that have been taught to me i will forever carry on with, should i ever decide to stop being an escort.

But being locked up made me realize life isnt about making lots of money. I thought having money would make me happy, but it didnt. Sure i had nice things but i never had anyone to share them with. Beside the fact my parents found out what i was doing, they became distant from me, embarrassed at what i was doing. i hadnt talked to them in years. i was by myself, making all this money for what?

I have always been professional about my work. And my work ethic is excellent but now i want to concentrate on just living a normal life and appreciating the things that are truly important to me. My family. Money will come and go. I can not take it with me when i die, so its not longer a big priority in my life.

I stilll love meeting the people imeet, the kind that can educate me and make me a better person. I will always go out of my way to help wherever i can but i will never look at escorting the same way. Its taught me alot but from now on im going to do it for the right reasons, if thats even probable.

im no longer around the bad influences i was before and my mind is finally clear. I can see what i want out of life and thats what im working towards. I hope one day i will find "love". Though i dont count on it, it be a great goal to look forward to.

I appreciate all the support and relationships ive built with you guys. Just know that you all are greatly appreciated for everything you have taught me and will continue to teach me! i look forward to coming to texas to see you guys!

Happy Valentines Day!!

Unfortunate that it was your time in the cage that helped you get back on the right
track, but all the same happy for you that you're setting what your priorities should
be for yourself. Find what you want in life and work for it. Being at peace with
yourself is the best kind of peace. Enjoy it. OK Enough of the zen stuff.

I'm not gonna lie or be in denial about that shady things that go on or can crop up in
this hobby. It can be a gateway to some nasty things. But just because it can lead
you somewhere doesn't mean you should go down that way. There are real dangers
in the world in this hobby and outside of it. Best to simply tread carefully and be safe.

You and any other of the wonderful providers on this board and in this hobby shouldn't
put yourselves at more risk than you already do.

Anyway... Just glad to have you back amongst us and look forward to seeing you when
you come down south to visit us hicks in Texas.

...hicks?!! u dont give yourself enough credit! i was raised in the boonies so what does that make me?! im a mudbuggin type girl! hop on the fourwheelers and get down n dirty in the mud!

Unfortunate that it was your time in the cage that helped you get back on the right
track, but all the same happy for you that you're setting what your priorities should
be for yourself. Find what you want in life and work for it. Being at peace with
yourself is the best kind of peace. Enjoy it. OK Enough of the zen stuff.

I'm not gonna lie or be in denial about that shady things that go on or can crop up in
this hobby. It can be a gateway to some nasty things. But just because it can lead
you somewhere doesn't mean you should go down that way. There are real dangers
in the world in this hobby and outside of it. Best to simply tread carefully and be safe.

You and any other of the wonderful providers on this board and in this hobby shouldn't
put yourselves at more risk than you already do.

Anyway... Just glad to have you back amongst us and look forward to seeing you when
you come down south to visit us hicks in Texas. Originally Posted by deevad

...hicks?!! u dont give yourself enough credit! i was raised in the boonies so what does that make me?! im a mudbuggin type girl! hop on the fourwheelers and get down n dirty in the mud! Originally Posted by Sweet Mandy

oh that's just my self-deprecating sense of humor lol.

and thank you for that visual! I'll have to excuse myself for 20 minutes or so
after picturing you all dirty and wet

you too funny!!! thanks for the good laugh!

It is great to see you back on here and to see that great personality that we all got to witness and enjoy.....

aww thanks! i love being myself so it comes naturally!

It is great to see you back on here and to see that great personality that we all got to witness and enjoy..... Originally Posted by Eccie Addict

Sincerity, very rare in this hobby. Thanks for being that way.

Hello everyone, theres something i have always wanted to put out in the open and get feed back on but just never thought it was something i should really tell. But after being locked up for 6 months i really would like to clue you in on my point of view.

When i got into this line of work i did it for the wrong reasons, i never really "needed" the money the way most providers do. I have a real job that is great. I went to college, and am actually now back in school majoring in psychology. But none the less i got into being a provider and ive loved it.

ive experienced the good the bad and the downright ugly but its made me a better person. i love meeting new people, and the life lessons that have been taught to me i will forever carry on with, should i ever decide to stop being an escort.

But being locked up made me realize life isnt about making lots of money. I thought having money would make me happy, but it didnt. Sure i had nice things but i never had anyone to share them with. Beside the fact my parents found out what i was doing, they became distant from me, embarrassed at what i was doing. i hadnt talked to them in years. i was by myself, making all this money for what?

I have always been professional about my work. And my work ethic is excellent but now i want to concentrate on just living a normal life and appreciating the things that are truly important to me. My family. Money will come and go. I can not take it with me when i die, so its not longer a big priority in my life.

I stilll love meeting the people imeet, the kind that can educate me and make me a better person. I will always go out of my way to help wherever i can but i will never look at escorting the same way. Its taught me alot but from now on im going to do it for the right reasons, if thats even probable.

im no longer around the bad influences i was before and my mind is finally clear. I can see what i want out of life and thats what im working towards. I hope one day i will find "love". Though i dont count on it, it be a great goal to look forward to.

I appreciate all the support and relationships ive built with you guys. Just know that you all are greatly appreciated for everything you have taught me and will continue to teach me! i look forward to coming to texas to see you guys!

Happy Valentines Day!!

Originally Posted by Sweet Mandy

Everyone comes full circle at some point. My momma always told me, your only as good as the people you hang around. Hang in there.

So when so you think you'll visit Houston again huh huh

I think that you stated your thoughts very well and i do understand where you're coming from in some of your statements especially the one about family being more important and it is always good to stay away from people that are not out to help you and are looking to use you or get over on you. But as i've learned in life it takes bumping your head to see the bigger picture and when you do see it, its not always that easy to reach but just stay focused and keep your eye on the prize and in the end things always work out the way they are suppose to anyhow!!! Good luck in all that you are doing....

thanks everyone for the comments and yes im just going to continue to be a good person and try my best. hopefully ill be able to come to houston this summer...we shall see.

thanks everyone for the comments and yes im just going to continue to be a good person and try my best. hopefully ill be able to come to houston this summer...we shall see. Originally Posted by Sweet Mandy

Dont just try, do your best!

I want to see you when you get down here

well i have to come down in april for my trial, for the fake money i recieved back in feb of last year from one of my clients...but my mother is coming with for "support" so i wont exactly be able to accomplish anything but she knows i travel for my media company job so i think i can get away for a few days and fligh down there once i get my i.d. so you guys will be seeing me sooner then later!

best you really seem sweet and sincere despite the bad things tossed at you. on an unrelated note god you have lovely breasts. those may be the nicest nipples and the biggest i have seen on a woman the is not a bbw. i hope things allow you continue to offer your tremendous outlook, personality and of course breast to our community as i know many guys will enjoy all of the above. its a shame you do not live closer as you look incredible

well i have to come down in april for my trial, for the fake money i recieved back in feb of last year from one of my clients...but my mother is coming with for "support" so i wont exactly be able to accomplish anything but she knows i travel for my media company job so i think i can get away for a few days and fligh down there once i get my i.d. so you guys will be seeing me sooner then later! Originally Posted by Sweet Mandy