My own awkwardness and nervousness ruining my own mood

A bit new to this hobby but just wondering how y’all over come that mental block and just enjoy the moment, I find the “enjoying” part difficult since I tend to get nervous a bit, also how much small talk if any do y’all do? Or just go straight to business?

I always small talk at first and make sure the person is comfortable. A few drinks help as well.

Vanessa is straight up the most legit. Do not visit her with worries in your mind. Enjoy every second!

Never take drinks or food from providers. Show up. Get your nut and leave. That's it. Convo not needed.

...get a regular or two...build familiarity...and your confidence will increase with practice over time...then add to your "regulars list"...until you have the confidence to enter the "one-and-done" game.

I agree with DFW, pick a girl and make her a regular. See her for a while until you're comfortable and able to enjoy it. It takes a while to get used to the non traditional stuff we do.