Well, I know this is an old and stupid topic. Please ignore me if I'm boring you with this shit. But I have to speak it out, cuz I am driven crazy! Now here is the story:
I met the provider two weeks ago and have been seeing her every two or three days. (only have had two sessions. Yes, several meet ups but only two sessions cuz I feel embarrassed to ask for a session.) At first I just want to help this girl back on her feet. But as time went by, I found that I began to have another kind of feeling about her. I couldn't turn down any of her requests. I did research for her, rent a car under my name for her, took her to shopping and paid for her outfits, and made dumplings at home for her. And I was willing to sign her court bonds and rent an apartment for her.Yes, I trust her! And I care about her. When being with her, I feel a lil bit nervous and extremely happy just like years ago when I met my first love in college. When staring at her face, I almost forgot about the world around me. Seeing her smile, I feel that nothing else can satisfy more... Every time I came back home after seeing her, I couldn't help but stare at her picture getting absentminded in everything else and began to expect our next meet up. And some times I even woke up from dreams about her at 3 or 4 o'clock in the morning......
I think I'm insane. I never thought of falling for an escort, but this is what's happening now! Omg! Yesterday when I saw another guy stating in his post that he had found true love here, I even had happy tears...
What should I do? I'm going crazy!