I got into this hobby during my college years after my long time GF cheated. After I got over the heartbreak, I decided to never have a long term relationship again. I worked hard, played hard, and became successful.
Told myself I'm a 10 and am the big dog, day in and day out...I lied to myself for so long that I actually believe the lies and it shows in how I feel and carry myself. I've had many beautiful women in my life but always end it quickly...so instead of hurting them and damaging my reputation in the process, I stopped dating altogether and have been strictly seeing providers.
After all these years, I still have respect for women...I've met some providers that were stuff of nightmares and some that restored my faith in the profession. I sometimes binge and frequent providers everyday for weeks...hell I've been on a binge for the past 2 weeks.