I just had this day dream and I have to admit it was more than fun. Maybe its a reflection of the inner me or some nebulous deep inner truth about me.
Maybe if i shared it, you might just share a real part of you.
I am a juvenile diabetic, been for years....if you get something like this....and you take care of it..you are actually healthier than the average person. And yes I take care of myself..i eat right..i run..i work out..ran track in middle school..high school and college..all because my doc said i needed to exercise...I have maybe given myself something like 50,000 shots to live...so here goes with my day dream....
i'm at this restaurant with a woman i don't know well but i want to know...
theres an aura surrounding us of sensual tension but its such an undercurrent because we arent sure of the other's interest and neither one of us wants to be the first to just dive in and expose ourselves to the risk
the waiter comes..we order...i excuse myself to go to the rest room to give myself a shot....
i sense someone walking behind me..i push the rest room door in..this woman pushes past me and its her, my dinner companion....she hurries to a stall and looks and me and says..come on in....
i just robotically obey her and enter the stall almost trance like..she closes the door..undoes my pants....she grabs my insulin pen and needle from my hand...she sits on the toliet and impatiently motions me to sit on her lap...i do..my pants falling to my ankles
i sit facing out..her arms wide around me....i see her screw the needle on the pen...she clears the needle... dials up one unit and pushes the pen..the insulin streams up in the air and falls back..some hitting my bare thigh
with her empty hand she pinches up skin on my thigh....with her other hand she twirls the pen around and she brings it down and STICKS THAT NEEDLE IN ME...as she does she bites the back of my neck hard...my head drops and my chin is on my chest...my eyes closed..somehow out of my lips the soft whisper of "i love you" escapes my mouth...
weird maybe