I have been seeing my ATF massage lady for 5+ years now and we have a pretty close relationship. It took me years and years of seeing her (and lots of begging) to finally get her to do BBBJ on me.
Because of that, I felt that I have been the only one that she does this to and she's also adamant that she doesnt do it to anyone else.
Now recently, I have secretly found out from her coworkers that she performs BBBJ all the time to her clients.
Now, I'm getting many extreme feelings that I cant get out of my head.
#1 is the lying that she's done to me.
#2 is the jealousy feeling I get that many other men are getting the same special treatment that I thought only I was getting.
#3 is the safety/cleaniness factor. Does it all have to end now that I found out about her doing others?
I know she's just a person who constantly gets naked for others and do HJ+ for a living and I shouldn't let it get to me.
but its bothering me. anyone else go through the same or have ideas to resolve this?