Good things can come out of this realm of ours.
Many people close to me know that for the last several months I've gone through many hurdles.
My implant I had for 14 years busted and I was forced to have surgery ASAP to fix it. 3 weeks after surgery, just as I was getting into my stride again, I felt ill. It was as quick as waking up one morning in discomfort and by noon seriously I'll. Barely able to walk, weak, in physical pain nauseous, hot to cold and so on. Thinking I was getting the flu, I cancelled the day and went to sleep.
When I woke up that evening I connected the dots and had Roxanne take me to ER. (the ones that know the story please bare with me or fast forward. Lol.) I knew my symptoms were connected to the pain in my breast and something was wrong.
As things progressed I realized I was incredibly sick. Deathly sick. I had gotten staph infection and it had gotten into my blood. My blood pressure so low they turned me upside down in a bed to raise it. White blood cell count at 33,000. Heart rate racing. So on and so on.
I was in the hospital for a week. They had to remove the implant because they couldn't stop the infection no matter how much antibiotic they pumped in me.
I am left with one implant in and one not. I had tubes attached and the story could get grosser but that's not the point. This mishap threw me out of the hobby. For an extended amount of time. The implant can not be restored to me until the end of January due to the extensive infection. From the beginning to today that has been almost two months and by the time it's all said and done I will have gone through this for over four months.
The reason I'm posting this is more to catch you up and to bring to mind something very beautiful I discovered here.
Not only did I have a great friend I could call that would drive 30 minutes to drive me to the hospital but she stayed with me every night and handled everything so I wouldn't worry. Thank you Roxanne. The commitment and love you showed was more than I have ever known. The point? I met her in the hobby.
Another point, there were so many people came to visit and show me love that the nurses thought I was having a constant party and many times it was standing room only. I've never known such love and support. Point again, I met them all in the hobby. (outside of my family of course)
The love and support of clients I have enjoyed and grown to know over the years have stepped up to assist in my financial needs and I want to publicly thank them. I understand discretion and will not name names. However, from the bottom of my heart I thank you and am indebted to a degree most people will never understand. You will be the first I contact upon my return to let you know personally my appreciation. I will never say no to you. You will forever have my gratitude and appreciation and I will go out of my way to let you know it. Point, I met them in the hobby.
Sometimes, all we hear about here is the negative side of the hobby. I'm living proof that is not true. I'm living proof that a gent can be kind to a lady and assist and she will value it. I'm living proof gents will care if you're ok and will reach out to lift you up when you need it. I'm living proof that even in this realm we can find life long friends and love that comes to be with you in the dark moments.
If nothing else, this is my public thank you to all who have given me love during this. I have you in mind and I will never forget it. You have made me feel more loved than I expected and in my downtime I've thought of nothing other than how to repay that feeling.
I love this hobby of ours. I love my family. I'm thankful for my health. I'm thankful for the different levels of love that have surrounded and protected me. Thank you.