I was wondering, do any of find yourself hobbying/providing out of habit ?
I guess it can be more like a routine. It is like, you dont have to hobby/provide but it is a part of your routine. I think that hobbying has sort of become part of my routine for the past 9 or 10 months.
At the end of each week usually like a Thursday or Friday, I am like okay I wasted $$$ this week, I gotta stop that, I should just go to a bar and pick up a girl yada yada ya. Then I think, naw too much drama comes with that (S.O. at the house). Then by Monday, I am like, I need a massage then I talk myself out of that cause it is like wasted money when I can get more for the same as the massage + happy ending. Sometimes I talk myself out if it, BUT by Tuesday ( and reading ECCIE) I am like I need a session. Long story short, I am hobbying like twice a week (spending too much $$$$$$$$) ...... Notanewbie laughs at me cause I call and tell him that I am bored with the hobby, want the chase, then by the end of the day I have had a session, lol..... Then I call Newb and tell him that I am going to take a break from the hobby and yep you guessed it, I spend double, hell on those days I have seen two in a day.... I am soooooo lame ....
Now since I have written this, I will probably get a session tomorrow, lol. I really believe that it has become part of some weird pattern for me. The funny thing is that if I just go out and have a drink/mingle before I go home or in the day, I wont hobby . My itch is scratched. i think that I just like being around people hmmm. I may be on to something.
Did I just ramble ? I think I just like meeting new people .