"My Way"
And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, I'll say it clear,
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain.
I've lived a life that's full.
I've traveled each and ev'ry highway;
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Regrets, I've had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.
I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.
I've loved, I've laughed and cried.
I've had my fill; share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.
To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
"No, oh no not me,
I did it my way".
For what is a womman, what has she got?
If not herself, then she has naught.
To say the things She truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.!!!!
The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!
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THAT IS A PERFECT SONG, ......EVERY WORD...
Hello everyone and Happy New Year
The time has come, and in the end, I had to make some really important decisions
as this New Year comes in..
Ive decided to leave the business that I gave 19 years of my life to
I have alot of people to THANK
and even more people to tell TO GO LICK BALLS!!!!
LOL MOST OF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN .....ITS COMPLETELY BEEN A FUCKING CRAZY LAST
3 YEARS...
In the next 24-48 hours, my phone 214-315-9779 will be cut off..
ALL OF MY WEBSITE/ ADS / PROFILES HAVE BEEN DELETED OR DEACTIVATED OR REMOVED
I DONT HAVE MUCH TO SAY...I KNOW ALOT OF PEOPLE ARE WONDERING WHY
SOMETHING HAPPENED, SOMETHING HAS BEEN HAPPENING ...
AND SOMETHING IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN
PLEASE RESPECT MY DECISION AND BE HAPPY FOR ME
(AND IF NOT THEN KINDLY GO FUCK YOURSELF....)...LOL
YES ITS TRUE, I AM NOT EMPLOYED ELSEWHERE...YET BUT HAVE QUITE A FEW THINGS IN
THE BALANCE
ITS TRUE THAT I AM LOOKING FOR WORK
AND ITS ALSO TRUE THAT I HAD SHUT DOWN EVERYTHING BECAUSE EVERYTHING RELATED TO
MY REAL NAME ---
WAS ALSO RELATED TO MARISA OF DALLAS
THERE IS NO WAY A PROFESSIONAL DEGREED PERSON SUCH AS MYSELF CAN FIND WORK
AS LONG AS THESE THINGS EXIST AND ARE ACTIVE ONLINE..
IVE LOST TOO MANY OPPORTTUNITIES UPON SOMEONE GOOGLING MY NAME, PHONE NUMBER,
EMAIL ADDRESS, FACEBOOK, ETC.,....
IT ALL SCREAMS PORN STAR ESCORT MARISA, NOT SOMEONE TO BE TAKEN SERIOSULY
LET ALONE GIVEN AN OPPORTUNITY, EVEN THOUGH SO WELL DESERVED
IT BEING MY PAST IS ONE ISSUE.......
BUT I NEED TO CUT TIES , ITS MOTIVATION AND HEALING I NEED BEFORE ATTEMPTING TO
RETURN TO A LIFE OF WORKING IN A NORMAL OCCUPATION
IVE HAD ENOUGH DEATH, LOSS, PAIN, ABUSE AND TRAUMATIC HEARTBREAKING MOMENTS AS A
PROVIDER..
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WELL I MADE A FRIEND ABOUT A MONTH AGO, FOR MY GROUP.. YOU WOULD KNOW HIM AS THE GUY THAT
HELPED ME MOVE ....
A FRIEND... A MALE FRIEND...... HAS SHOWN ME NOTHING BUT COMPLETE SUPPORT AND
RESPECT
A FRIENDSHIP SO NEW YET A PERSON SO REAL AND THAT HAS NO ALTERIOR MOTIVE
I AM CRAZY ABOUT HIM
AND TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH
HE WAS THE FINAL REASON I HAVE DECIDED TO CHANGE MY LIFE
HE DIDNT ASK ME TO CHANGE ANYTHING..HE WAS JUST THE ONE PERSON THAT TOLD ME TO STOP COMPLAINING AND JUST DO IT, BECAUSE HE ENCOURAGED ME AND BELIEVES IN ME ..
I AM SURE, SO SURE THAT ITS TIME AND THAT OUR FRIENDSHIP WAS FORMED AT SUCH A
STRANGELY APPROPRIATE MOMENT ...
AND MY HEARTS DESIRES ARE NOW BEYOND MONEY, FAME AND POWER
I AM COMPLETELY ENJOYING THE FEEELING OF ONE MANS TOUCH, ONE MANS COMPANY AND
ONE MANS ATTENTION
I DONT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN IN THE FUTURE, I JUST KNOW IT FEELS REALLY FUCKED
UP TO THINK ABOUT HOW I FEEL ABOUT HIM AND FUCKING ANYONE ELSE,,,
AND IT SEEMS COMPLETELY DISRESEPCTFUL TO GIVE ANYONE ELSE THAT INTIMACY ANYMORE
AM I IN LOVE? MAYBE I AM... BUT I WONT TELL AND ITS REALLY NOT THAT IMPORTANT
THAT YOU KNOW THAT,
WHATEVER IT IS, ITS GREAT...AND ITS DONE WONDERS FOR EVERY PART OF ME, MY SELF
ESTEEM, MY VALUE, MY SELF WORTH AND SELF IMAGE HAS COMPLETELY CHANGED
MY ABILITY TO LET GO EMOTIONALLY AND SEXUALLY.......AND ACTUALLY ENJOY THE
CONNECTION THAT SHOULD HAPPEN WHEN TWO HUMAN BEINGS FUCK
IVE NEVER EXPERIENCED ANYTHING LIKE IT
IT MADE ME REALIZE WHAT I WAS MISSING AND I WANT IT..
I WANT MORE OF IT
AND I WANT TO SEE HIM STAY IN MY LIFE
EVEN IF HE IS JUST MY BEST FRIEND, AND IT NEVER BECOMES ANYTHING MORE THAN
THAT.... I DONT CARE...I STILL WANT TO BE FAITHFUL SEXUALLY AND INTIMATELY...
I AM NOT WILLING TO LOSE THAT..
.IT S JUST TOO IMPORTANT TO ME
IF I STAY, THE ANGER AND PROBLEMS AND STRESS RELATED TO THIS BUSINESS THESE DAYS
...WILL TOTALLY INFILTRATE MY PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP
LADIES....
THIS BUSINESS ASKS ALL OF YOU.....AND I GAVE IT!! AND RARELY LEAVES ANYTHING
LEFT FOR ANYONE ELSE....
IF YOURE DOING IT RIGHT ANYWAY, LOL
THIS POST IS COMING FROM A WOMAN THAT HAS DONE THIS FOR 19YEARS...
WAY TOOOOOOO LONG..LOL
I ALWAYS HAD ANOTHER OCCUPATION, BUT THE LAST 6 , I WAS EXCLUSIVELY A PROVIDER
AND I WANT TO GIVE IT TO ONE
NOT TO ALL
ANYMORE
ITS A BEAUTIFUL DAY IN MY HEART AND MIND, A TRIUMPHANT MOMENT AND A RELEASE FROM
THE BONDAGE AND DEGRADATION I HAVE EXPERIENCED THE LAST FEW YEARS
I USED TO LOVE MY JOB AND I WASNT AFRAID OF ANYTHING
BUT UNFORTUNATELY IVE BEEN SHOWN ONE TOO MANY TIMES THAT I WAS WRONG
AND I FELT TRAPPED
SO PLEASE LET ME GO,
AND PLEASE DO FORGIVE ME IF I OWED YOU SOMETHING
I JUST CANT ANY MORE
MY LIFE HAS SHOWN UP AND IM GOING WHERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE
THANK YOU AGAIN FOR EVERYTHING
GOODBYE
AND HAPPY NEW YEAR
IT IS THE BEGINNING OF THE END...
SO
..THERE ARE A FEW THINGS I NEED TO TAKE CARE OF THIS MONTH FINANCIALLY THAT ARE
IN QUESTION....
IF ANYONE WOULD BE WILLING TO HELP WITH THIS ONE LAST THING..
LITERALLY.. ONE LAST THING
I WOULD BE SO GRATEFUL
I CANT SAY WHAT IM WILLING TO NEGOTIATE
MAYBE IM JUST HOPING SOMEONE OUT THERE REALLY SUPPORTS WHAT IM DOING AND MIGHT
BE WILLING TO LET ME DO ANOTHER KIND OF WORK/CLEANING/ ETC...
IF YOU HAVE DAUGHTERS, SISTERS, MOTHERS AND WOMEN IN YOUR LIFE THAT HAVE MADE
DECISIONS THAT LED THEM TO A PLACE OF NEED..
THEN YOU UNDERSTAND
I CANT POSSIBLY THANK YOU ENOUGH FOR CONSIDERING
THE REASON I AM NOT WORKING IS BECAUSE MY KIDS ARE HERE FOR THEIR CHRISTMAS VACATION.. I CANNOT WORK AND WAS RETIRING ANYWAY...
THEREFORE I AM BEGINNING THE END OF MY CAREER AT A TIME WHERE I NEEDED TO COMPLETE A FINANCIAL GOAL BUT IS THERE EVER A .."RIGHT TIME" ..,
I AM TAKING A LEAP OF FAITH AND DOING WHAT MY HEART AND BODY ARE BEGGING ME TO DO..
WHEN I BROKE THE NEWS TO MY CHILDREN, MY 19 YEAR OLD ADMITTED TO KEEPING UP WITH THESE POSTS AND THAT SHE WAS WORRIED ABOUT ME
I WAS ALSO MET WITH A HUGE HUG AND A "DOES THAT MEAN I CAN COME HOME AND LIVE WITH YOU AGAIN?"
ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT SOME PROVIDERS HAVE TO CHOOSE OR RISK HAVING THEIR KIDS TAKEN AWAY BECAUSE SOME DISGRUNTLED CLIENT CALLED CAUSE PROBLEMS
I KNOW I STILL NEED TO TAKE CARE OF A FEW THINGS..
BUT HONESTLY...
I AM WILLING TO RISK EVERYTHING FOR A CHANCE AT BEING HAPPY AGAIN..
I AM LETTING GO OF WHAT MAKES ME UNHAPPY BECAUSE THERE IS SOMETHING THAT NOW IS MAKING ME GENUINELY HAPPY
...
LET ME KNOW IF ANY OF YOU HAVE ANY KIND OF WORK, I AM AVAILABLE FOR ...ALSO
PLEASE CONSIDER TAKING A LOOK AT MY RESUME IF YOU KNOW OF ANY EMPLOYMENT
OPPORTUNITIES
I AM CONVINCED I WILL FIND WORK WITHIN A MONTH AND NEVER HAVE TO RETURN HERE
AGAIN
PLEASE HELP ME MOVE ON..
I DONT WANT TO GO BACK
PLEASE HELP ME WITH THIS FINAL AMOUNT WITHOUT HAVING TO SUBJECT MYSELF TO
ANYTHING ELSE THAT MAKES ME UNCOMFORTABLE.....
PLEASE CONTACT ME AT 214-315-9779
OR EMAIL ME AT marisaofdallas@gmail.com
as my number above WILL BE DISCONNECTED
also my facebook http://www.facebook.com/marisaofdallas
and for the last time
if anyone is interested in helping support the cause of someone like myself
DOING THE RIGHT THING ....
AND CHANGING MY LIFE...
PLEASE CONTACT ME
MODERATORS PLEASE CLOSE THIS THREAD AND IS THERE ANY WAY I CAN RESPECTFULLY ASK YOU TO REMOVE ANY THREADS I HAVE POSTED AND ANYTHIN RELATED TO ME
MY CERTIFICATION TO RETURN TO THE LEGAL FIELD WILL BE FINALIZED IN JANUARY AND I WOULD APPRECIATE HAVING ANYTHING THAT MAY COME UP IN AN INTERNET SEARCH ( YES EVEN OF MY REAL NAME) ....REMOVED, PLEASE...
I HUMBLY THANK EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU,,,
WISHING YOU THE BEST AND ASKING FOR FORGIVENESS AND UNDERSTANDING FOR ANYTHING I MAY HAVE DONE IN THE LAST 2-3 VERY DIFFICULT YEARS
I DID HOWEVER PROUDLY WEAR AN AMAZING TITLE
FOR MANY MORE YEARS THAN I EVER EXPECTED
THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT AND ADMIRATION
THANK YOU AGAIN....
AND THANKS FOR LETTING ME SHARE..
OK IM READY...
LADIES ITS ALL YOURS....
HAPPY NEW YEAR
