Channeling psychological pain thru physical pain

or How I became a Masochist


I'm all about sharing and giving sexual pleasures... but, when it comes to pain, I don't get off on giving it... unless, it is a real life situation that warrants it *ahem*

The expression of a leather collar tightly wrapped around my neck, growing tighter or looser as I prefer, the feeling of being beat willingly at the hands of my 'shrink' - the person delivering my therapy... having my hands tied by a harsh rope at my back... helpless, yet full of inner strength ...but, momentarily surrendered

In life, we don't have the option to surrender. Here, I do

While I surrender, I contemplate...

To have the control of my life, in the hands of another...

How does it feel

I'm tied up, but cared for

But, it is not enough

I long to get out

To have these contraptions removed, it is starting to suffocate me

I must get out and get back in total.. complete control

Don't ever lose control, I tell myself


Perfect control

"I will never let myself get tied down again, in the hands of another..."

My past has caused my present and future goals to be more of a,, challenge,,than it should be. With regular 'attention' from my 'therapist' I find freedom. I am given the gift of clarity an self awareness along with confidence in who i am, where i fit in the grand scheme...........it helps me FOCUS ON ME.