Ok this post is to also clarify what happened with Lauren and Amanda. This post is not to bad talk them or out them, instead this is to offer explanation and express how I feel and offer insight.
I first met Lauren on February 10, 2020 when she was living in Troy. The reason I sought her was her low rates, only $75 for hh. And I was looking for new provider after the stuff with Jada happened (this was fresh then). Like any new provider, I had no idea what she was like, so I went and saw her. I was impressed. She offered gfe with kissing and taking clothes off, a lot of foreplay. And bbfs, well i first asked if she had condoms, she told me that we can do it without, she's clean. Anyways, I like what I saw and Lauren became my go-to, I saw like 3 other providers as well at the time.
Then covid began and Lauren was down in Albany near City Hall and I was seeing her then, same great business. Gradually she slowly climbed to being my main regular as my other providers one by one failed me for reasons I do not need to repeat.
By the time it was mid summer 2020, Lauren had moved out of Downtown Albany and staying at various motels in Albany, Colonie and Latham. She also began bunking with Amanda. I still continued to see Lauren and also began seeing Amanda as new provider, she also allowed me to go bbfs.
All last fall and winter, I saw Lauren and Amanda reguarly for incalls and a few oucalls to my apartment. I also established friendships with them, occasionally going out to eat with one of them at Pizza Hut, Burger King or Denny's (Lauren and I actually celebrated our one year anniversary at Denny's on February 10, 2021). I also did an overnight with Amanda back in January for $500 at my apartment, my very first time in my life I ever slept overnight with a girl in bed - so you can see now why I am so upset at my life.
But over the winter and through the spring, problems began. Lauren and Amanda began being unreliable, never getting back to me and always running late, making me wait in the parking lot for sometimes up to 20 minutes. As a result, my anxiety began to act out and I would get upset and even had a few child like tantrums in the motel parking lot waiting for them or while in their room. One instance, I was going to do outcall with Lauren to my apartment and she ran 40 minutes late and I got upset in parking lot. Meanwhile, Amanda was doing incall, i made a scene and as a result, scared away Amanda's client, causing her to lose the needed money for her room. I felt so bad I gave Amanda $60 just as a friend to make up for my behaviors.
It worsened over the summer, the blew off my birthday. They both had promised to spend the day with me and do outcall to my apartment for my birthday. They never got back to me until last minute and then,Lauren agreed to see me for normal incall, but Amanda would go out for dinner with me. Disappointed about not having an outcall to my apartment, I agree anyways just to have Amanda run to deal with neighbor problem, totally ignoring my birthday. Lauren sees me for normal incall date (bbfs) and then after makes me leave cuz she has another client coming, totally ignoring my birthday. I was so upset, I cried like a little kid with her and she told me not to cry and that was it. Ruined my birthday back in June.
Over the summer, I continued to see them only for the connivence and I was scared to find new providers due to all the problems I had (you may recall I did try with Savannah, but after she robbed me, I stopped seeking out new girls). But the final straw came in August, when I got gonnerea. I know it was Staff Edit medical speculation). I went to doctor and got treated ***** about it, . I sent someone a private message here asking for tips on the situation and ***, explaining what happened. Somehow Hobbyist1 got my message and he began spreading it around to everyone. As a result, everyone found out and nobody wanted to see Lauren or Amanda *******
Word got back to them and Amanda sent me nasty texts telling me she hates me and to lose her number, not caring I got sick by her. Again Hobbyist1 is the one who spread the messages, so how is it my fault? And her lack of empathy about ***** and her continuation to work anyways shows how I was not in the wrong. Lauren meanwhile is more vague and tells me she is upset and needs clientelle to support her room. I still want to see Lauren only from here on (not Amanda) but she is vague and wont give me answer.
I agree to give us a three month break to let this all cool off, I would get retested in 3 months and if I am clean, start ****again. Also I would use the 3 months to improve my behavior and not ask anxious or throw tantrums. Well 3 months passed and I got retested and am clean, I text Lauren and she ghosts me still and doesnt care. I figured she blacklisted me and confirmed this when I tried setting up fake date on texting app and then after she responded told her it was me. This was this past Sunday, thats why I got so upset on Sunday posting here.
I am upset and hurt over this. I saw Lauren a total off 33 times (more than any other provider) and she was always nice and understanding and patient with me. And to just leave me hanging as a client, not even tell me she wasn't going to see me anymore. After we all we went thru. I just wanted another chance to see Lauren again.
I waited to post all of this until now, figuring since they blacklisted me, I can now post this. And yes I am bothered still, I refuse to even drive Central Ave in Colonie because going by the motel they live at, upsets and saddens me (they have lived in same motel room for over a year now, no kidding). I considered that section of Central Ave, their block. And honestly Amanda was no great loss, but Lauren was to me. I don't think Lauren understood how special she was to me.