I've recently started spending a considerable amount of time in the chat line and have gotten to have some nice conversations with a provider.
It was regular enough that i look forward to going in there to speak to her.
Of course i'll try to make an effort to schedule sessions but always seem to fall through due to scheduling. By now, it's not about bcd action anymore.
I genuinely like talking to this person. After a while I notice, this person stop acknowledging me and would ignore pm. Now and then I would say "hey i wanna schedule something with you", and god and behold she answers like a lightning flash. OUCH. OUCH OUCH.
I know i'm fooling myself, thinking that there can be friendships forged but now realize it's business only with these girls. I'm a number and a means to fill their wallets. Nothing more. It does hurt. Just wanted to spew my guts out here.