mourning a provider's passing

Hi all. I've only posted a few times on eccie, but I visit the site regularly. Recently I found out that a very utr provider I've known off and on for 15+ years died recently. Because of the nature of our relationship and respect for her privacy, I'm having a hard time dealing w/ the emotions since I can't really talk to anyone about it. Her vm still works and I'm somewhat embarrassed to say that I've called a few times just to hear her voice. She popped my escort cherry when I was just a kid and she was more than twice my age. I was smitten from the beginning and we shared some great times together. Best of all, she was a helluva human being. I miss her a lot. Just needed to write it down and put it out there. Thanks. No need to reply.

Sorry for your loss.

My heartfelt symphaty goes out to you! Loss someone you cares very much is a hurtful feeling. Speaking out and have an encouraging words will help your heart heal somewhat.

I think this is super sweet. I'm so sorry to hear you are missing a dear friend.

Here's a .... hope it helps a little.