So I have been lurking for a while and not really posting much. Partly because I am new to Austin, new job and I don't know if they monitor the interweb. So all my browsing has been on the iPhone and obviously that really isn't conducive to contributing a whole bunch.
So here is my problem. I've been with providers a few times before but I'm always hesitant to do it again. The problem really hasn't been the girls, it's that I haven't performed that well (never more than one shot and it goes too quickly).
This has never been a problem in my personal life and still isn't. I think it's that I'm so nervous because I'm new at it, that I can't really enjoy it. I have been toying with the idea of trying the blue pill for a while but can't get my doctor to prescribe it to me. He says I'm too young (30) not really in bad shape and that for me medication would be too much. He recommended sleep and more exercise.
The issue is I didn't really feel comfortable telling him why I really need it. I think if I use it the first couple of times with providers, I'd perform better, get over the nerviness and not need them anymore.
Any advise on how to proceed? I booked a nighttime appointment for tomorrow and I'd really like it to go well. If anyone in the area could help out I'd be much obliged.
And yes I just typed all this out on an iPhone.