Hey all:
I'm posting to offer my apologies to the fine ladies of this board. I've had my ups and my downs in this hobby. Never has a hobby affected me to the extent that this one has. Over the years, I've made friends here, but I've also pissed off a lot of ladies. I've dealt with my own personal struggles, guilt, shame, ect, over hobbying and balancing my Dr. Jeckyl and Mr. Hyde lifestyles. In one life, I'm a loving husband, father, loyal worker bee. In another, I'm a philandering sex-aholic. I'm not justifying my actions, just trying to explain my issues. Lately, the two lives have merged and it's been difficult to be me anywhere I am. I've made dates and backed out at the last second, or just NCNS more than I'd like to admit. I've also made dates, kept them, and had a wonderful time. To all those that I've wronged, I'm sorry. To all those that I've enjoyed, I'll miss you.
However, my life has taken a turn and a twist. I've had open and honest communications with my wife and we've decided to explore our kinkier sides together. It's a huge step. Once, on the verge of divorce, we decided that we had 3 options. Get divorced and break up our family. Stay together, continue to live separate unhappy lives. Or explore some of the things we want to do TOGETHER. I decided that the first two options sucked to me, and I wanted to try the third. Most of you don't know me. I haven't posted a lot. I tried to run under the radar, and was successful for the most part. I just can't live the separate lives anymore. I'm choosing my family, my career, and my sanity over being two different people and getting my jollies outside my marriage.
Thanks to all of you that make this place what it is. See ya on the other side.
LG