Veronica, as much as I hate to say it I've recently witnessed & was told about a reputable provider who outed a client to his family which goes to show evil lurks in places you wouldn't expect. But w/o proof it's all he said she said. Why can't people behave more like animals, the world would be a better place. To the op if you're lying shame on you, to the provider if you're doing this find healthier ways to work through your issues. Peace & hugs to everyone