How a provider acts in public can be MUCH different than how she acts face to face with clients.
I'm particularly different in crowds in a restaurant, as crowds of people make me nervous and anxious.
Specifically - it makes me hate people.
I know everyone is staring at me. (I'm fucking huge. I'm tall. I'm a red head. I'm not ugly. I have big boobs...etc.)
I try to smile genuinely, but it never comes out right - so I look like a fake ass bitch in these types of settings, unless I am there with someone I know well, and helps me keep in a "comfort zone".
I know you probably think I'm full of shit...like, "Oh yeah right. Bad ass Angie, out in public would be anxious in a crowded room of strangers."
Fuck yeah I would.
And if you saw me there and got your opinion of me based on that - and judged me ONLY based on that - then came back to me and decided you didn't want to see me?
Then I would absolutely go tell you to fuck yourself - because you don't know me - and fuck yourself for not asking if something might have been bothering me and - fuck yourself for thinking you know me from a passing conversation and a couple of glances.
Now - that just may be me trying to decipher your strangely worded post...and maybe I deciphered it poorly.
But communication is key.
And maybe some communication skills could be improved upon if you are willing to judge another based on some silly shit like that after already having gotten to know someone on a WAY more personal basis than a crowded restaurant where she didn't even know it was you.
Originally Posted by tntangie
You need to go out with me! At 6'10" and 385# you'd feel and look absolutely petite! Seriously, though I feel your pain. I've been enormous since childhood, so 50 years of dealing with this shit. Took me a long time to realize that if they're not paying my bills, I could give a rat's ass about their (choose one)
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It takes all shapes and sizes for our world to be what it is and I lose no sleep worrying what (douchebag) strangers do or say.
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