This is really a followup to my post in the Married but Hobbying thread. But it really leads to another related but separate thread discussing why we chose to meet our needs by paying for the services of providers and not pursuing "free" affairs. In the Married but Hobbying thread I wrote:
"Many of us are in the same boat...
I love my wife... but like a sister/companion...
family is important to me... and divorce would forever affect relationships that are very important to me...
But ... I probably should have pursued that years ago.
There is no intimacy at home in my life. I seek and find it with my ATFs.
Love/intimacy of the one hour variety is much better than having none at all.
Hobbying keeps me sane...
Personally, I seek intimacy more than sex...
There are special providers I've had the privilege of knowing over the years that have been caring and responsive... that have filled that void in my life.
BUT.... if I ever get caught (and as careful as I am..
it's probably inevitable)... hell hath no fury...
and I know that I will be the asshole and my wife..
will assume no responsibility.
Life isn't fair for us guys... Is it too much to ask
for what we yearn more than anything in this world:
being in the arms of a responsive, attractive woman?"
Based on the several PM's I've received regarding this post, I'm not surprised that I am not alone.
There are many of us who seek intimacy from providers: i.e., real GFE which in my mind first and foremost involves tenderness and mutual respect...lots of cuddling...kissing... conversation...caressing... followed by sexual activities that both parties feel comfortable with. I decided many years ago to seek the paid services of providers rather than to pursue affairs. While there are many that claim successful experiences with "no strings attached" affairs..It's my impression in observing many real life situations that there is no such thing as casual sex. While there were opportunities for affairs... someone always seems to get hurt. (I have no interest in hurting someone else in order to fulfill my needs). And all too often.. these "casual affairs" blow up in our faces. How many marriages...unexpected pregnancies....careers... even jail time have been the consequences of playing the most expensive game on the planet: "Dip the Weenie". Paying for sex establishes a clear boundary about expectations. Most importantly ...nobody gets hurt. The trick is finding a special provider who is open to developing a relationship...is open to becoming a real friend over time... a real lover for the hour that you're together. When you find that special lady...shout halleluia! and treat her like the queen that she is! Then... still be careful as hell....