Losing a parent always suck it touches that inner child of ours. And if you can’t do burial memorial it is hard for closure. Scream outside
Verbalize I miss you and your loneliness
Then find your best memory. Lost stepmom a month ago floated lost for a week or so but focus on the living
My deepest condolences. We may not always see our parents every day, but the children inside us always assumes they'll always be there for us, and losing them is so painful.
I'm sorry for your loss and hope that you'll feel better soon even though you'll never forget him. I was too young to remember anything about my father when he passed away so all of you that have had many memorable years with your dad are lucky. This is a really shitty time for everyone to suffer loss.