To clarify, I'm not afraid per se but sperm, coming in contact with my own spermmakes my skin crawl. Yeah, I masturbate. I also make sure when I feel a nut coming on to grab a bunch of wetnaps or do it in a nice warm running shower in the morning. Blowjobs are another matter. Obviously I'm getting bare ones, but if I allow myself to finish in her mouth I don't wanna kiss her for the rest of the Appointment. I don't wanna snowball. Even if she swallows. I need to see her gargle or brush her teeth. I know it's a mental block on my end. It's the idea that is alive and swimming in that pool of liquid.
Besides eating my own sperm how would one get over this?
) Psychologically speaking, you probably aren't going to find an effective solution, no matter how much advice is given. You have to decide what you can tolerate, and not worry henceforth. It isn't a big deal to we ladies.