I f'd up. I caught something...

Feelings. I've always been a bit emotional. I wear them on my sleeve. It's a curse. I mostly don't like it. Been seeing latest ATF since last Nov. Found out last week she has a boyfriend outside the shop. She says for a couple of months. It was a gut punch. I know what y'all are going to say. I know, it's my own damn fault. I put her in a place I shouldn't have. I know it's only fair for her to have a life outside as I do. She knows how I feel. She reciprocates that but knows I can't give her anything more. She says nothing changes. In the back of my mind, I always knew she could be gone or something at any moment. But the boyfriend I didn't see coming. I'm slowly wrapping my arms around the situation. Damn it.

Dr., if this isn't allowed, just pull it down.

This is not what I was expecting to say you caught

It happens. Live and learn

Its happened to me too. It's tough sometimes to separate the situation. I got into a "thing" with a spa girl. We would hang out, have dinner, drinks, spend time together. I even stopped seeing her at the spa as we connected after hours. Got to protect those feelings and don't get close.

These things happen, wearing your emotions on your sleeve is not a bad thing…just keep it in check with the hobby; client/provider first and always (easily said than done).

Chemistry can develop, but it will be built through a glass wall.

Been there. Done that. You'll get through it and become a better hobbyist for it.

I think every person has gone through the same thing. It happens, especially when the lines get blurred and you start spending time with them outside of the normal interaction. It can start casually enough; you are both bored, so you decide to just hang out and keep each other company. Things start happening, you begin to connect with each other, and emotions get involved.

I find this subject interesting. The first girl who mentioned a BF to me made me laugh, I couldn't imagine a serious relationship when the guy knows what she does. But many girls do have men in their lives, I do not understand it but it is common. I understand how it can be a gut punch when you think you have a real connection with a girl, only to find out it really is just about the money. Good luck and remember there's plenty of fish in the sea.

You're not the first, nor will you be the last. When it started to cross a line for me and on of the providers I was seeing, we both recognized it before it was too late and we parted with happy memories. I miss her greatly, but know it would have ruined us both if we continued.

You have to remember first and foremost that the vast majority of these wonderful angels and fine young ladies of our carnal desires ARE RENTALS!! We do not have any ownership rights - save for a very, very few examples - you have to try your best not to catch ANYTHING and that includes jealous feelings of propriety.

Sorry for your loss...but, she wasn't yours to lose...

As I said, you guys aren't telling me anything I don't know. The support is appreciated.