Sex Addict
I have been in this hobby for about a year, during which I have had relations with approximately 32 different providers from many different parts of the world. This is becoming an addiction for me, I started maybe doing it once every two months, now I am restraining myself not to do it more than twice a week. Money is not much of a problem, the problem lies with my wife.
No, she does not know, but let me explain. She is an Italian/Mexican/Spaniard about 5’5” tall, athletic body (six pack after 5 kids!!) with big MM 34DD and a solid big round ass, and to top it, since all kids were C section, she is tight as the first time I popped her cherry. On bed she is a tornado, she will never turn me down, I think she even asks for it more than I do and she will do it all, even squirt. She always comes and makes me cum with her every time, I have never experimented multiple orgasms with any other woman, she really knows how to make me explode.
So if I have it all, why in the hobby? Variety. There used to be the day I would not look at any other woman, not desired any other woman. Once I entered a porn shop to by some toys for us, and I liked watching porn, and then masturbate when I was on one of my trips, and then….. well here I am.
I am thinking of quitting for good, I love her dearly and if she ever finds out it would destroy her. That is at least what I say, especially after fucking some provider and few days later, usually when I am traveling, I find myself on top of a girl bagging her ass.
I think I need professional help….. mmm from a provider?? Fuck, See?? Here I go again!!.
Originally Posted by duroperoseguro
Sir, it sounds to me like you are not even happy with hobbying. Anytime something is no longer enjoyable, then yes, I say it's time to really give it the good college try and quit. Sir, maybe I am wrong, but I feel the internet is the doorway to your addiction. Perhpas you could stay off the internet, stay off Eccie, do not lurk at ads. Is there some way you could get interested in some other hobby?
You feel bad about this, so therefore you have a conscience. If you told me you did not feel bad about it, then you would truely be lost. I think you can be helped.
More people have sex addictions/infidelity problems now then 20 years ago. Statistics show that could be because of the internet. I say try to stay off these internet site. Better yet, cancel all your accounts relating to the hobby also. Good luck and please take care of yourself.
