You drop this line in like we are supposed to know who your last girlfriend was and maybe I'm guessing that your gf was a provider because you mentioned reviews? Maybe I missed something earlier in the thread because I had a short circuit in my brain trying to connect the dots and make heads or tails of this. Can you fill us in so this makes more sense?
Originally Posted by travelling_man
I was explicit about her being a provider at the end of the first paragraph, so maybe you just skimmed what I wrote while reading it? Overall you did not have a brain fart or miss something as some know whom I am referencing while others, like you, won’t know but that is Ok. I wrote it that way because who she is doesn’t matter but what she does, e.g. being a provider, does matter.
My point in bringing her up was that I gained from that experience with her and I view it as a way for me to improve one aspect of my BCD activities when I am with someone else. Based on what I heard from her, I wrote that I guess I needed to change my basic nature of being quiet when having fun. Acknowledgement of the issue is the first step, now it requires practice which, so far, has been unsuccessful in changing.
I agree TOTALLY with SP and others....I NEVER want to hear a girl call me daddy. It makes me lose wood almost instantly and all I can think about is - what kind of sick, fucked up, twisted girl would even allow the though to enter her head about being fucked by her own father in a pleasurable way? I understand that many girls might have had some kind of sexual abouse in their childhood from a relative, but if the girl is thinking about her daddy fucking her I would expect it to be in a moment of inner turmoil as she is rembering something very painful from her past, not in the throes of passion while she is with me!
Originally Posted by travelling_man
That pretty much sums up my thoughts as well. I will point out that the girl probably is not thinking that but I know I can't get past the thoughts expressed above and she most likely has nothing better to say except that. Just like "baby", "honey" or "sweety" are used in a generic sense, I would rather just have my name, that they know but may not be my real name
, used instead. At least calling someone by their first name is more intimate and personal in the illusion than "baby", "honey", "sugar" or "sweetheart". Well, at least to me it is but then my real world friends know I am a picky SOB!