What should I do?

unfortunately, "been there" too. move on, spend time on people that appreciate you. Also, do nice things for yourself. Take yourself out to nice restaurant, buy gifts for you, favorite music, books, movies, etc. Feed your soul.

She showed up last night. Took me out for dinner, gave me a Christmas gift. Fuck me for rest of the night, and got me breakfast with coffee.

Damn it.....could not get of out it.