and being born and raised in Pennsylvania ==> I was always proud we had this:
http://www.800padutch.com/intercourse.shtml
and its not too far from:
http://www.800padutch.com/paradise.shtml
but I'd try to avoid visitng:
http://blueball.pennsylvania.com/
Maybe you should see a doctor, I dont think it's healthy to put so much negative energy into something/someone. Good luck!