The grass is always greener on the other side.
Realistically there is little difference between P4P
and non-prov women; semantics, pure semantics.
You'll need money for an SO. In someways SO's
cost leagues above what a premium provider does
and they rarely will do as much as often.
I'm going back to school just so I can afford
to put a hideaway honey on retainer.
SO's are a two edged sword.
Providers at least will let you be in peace.
If you are thinking a more permanent type of woman
would be better for loneliness issues think again.
It's a crapshoot there too.
It's a joke to think civie females are any more
suited to better care for your emotions.
That's the first mistake. Only you can care
for your emotions consistently. You try and
count on someone else you are just setting
yourself up for a big fall.
Truly good women are rare. Even then they got
preferences too- no anal, no 69, no CIM,
not even a fuggin hj if they are OtR.
Oh and their moods........grrrrr
My provs have moods too- they're women
but I don't get vexed over it.
Provs have fewer hidden costs than SO.
Only thing SO's are good for is breeding.
The lack of any progeny maybe the real nut here.
Since I have children, I will always be loved,
and in hoary age taken care of.
If I was truly single.......whoa.
I know, this only further complicates things.
But it is a perspective.