I just saw the thread and also want to convey my condolences. Dealing with the loss of a loved ones is so difficult. I know many have said it, but take the time necessary to grieve. It is a process that simply has to be walked through. We will remember you and your family during this time.
Having just experienced a family loss of my own, this thread hits close to home. It is so very difficult to lose a loved one, and especially a spouse. My thoughts and prayers go out to you GB.