I don't know about y'all, but the next time I'm at a meeting, I'm going to try to figure out which of you are fellow hobbyists.
I don't have any good advice for you, Traci, as I don't know you. But I know there are many ways to get sober and stay sober. There's nothing wrong with trying to control or stop your drinking on your own. But if you find that you can't do this, you can also find a solution spritually, be it church or AA or Buddhism. And you may be surprised at the level of acceptance and understanding you will receive if you choose to get help. However, you probably shouldn't rely on hobbyists for help....much better if you found other women to work with you. (I can't stress this last sentence enough.)
Safe travels.
Tim