I got you Listener.
Honestly, like Hunter said. You're not doing anything wrong, but you are right. It is a racial thing. But you can't concentrate on numbers for other people, just your own. You represent Black women to the best of your ability. Be the positivity in Black culture the men that love us or even those curious about us need to see.
The only question you should be asking your self is:
Are you meeting your financial goals? Comfortably?
If you are, then that's all that matters. If not, make the necessary changes.
Going to Europe doesn't help the situation AT all. But it is an adventure I recommend. Having been to London, I did well (like REALLY well), and that was the first time I was EVER full time. But the consensus is still the same. Black girls' rates are ƒ50 lower on average, and the quickest way to get AIDS treatment is to say you were barebacked by a Black person. But I'm surprised that you haven't been touring at all.
But your focus is off. Being the 'Best Black Ho' is nothing to aspire to. Aspire to a goal in your real life. That way you're not racking your brain out over your popularity in this world. Don't let "Mya" become all you are.
Originally Posted by Tiffani Jameson
I understand what you are saying, and it felt like maybe a little weight has been lifted off my shoulders in response to your kind words. However the thing about I should not want to become the best black ho, I think was a little uncalled for. I do not think the term "ho" could ever be used to describe me, and yes I understand your candidness, but I feel like this profession is worth giving my all, and I have been treated like nothing but a princess from the gentlemen I have met (and I am very appreciative). I just love this profession so much it really is my passion! I know society says i'm a "ho" but I feel like a "princess"!
I also am working on investment plans and retirement and honestly from the past 2 years and only being 24yrs old I know I have a life span to provide for atleast 10 more years. I know I can save up a retire fund on that and maybe get into some other work when I turn 30. I'm not a ditz what so ever when it comes to managing money. I don't live session to session.
I believe this is a real field of work, one that I can be proud of to put my life into. Now I don't know if i can accept the message that "No, I'm sorry Mya but you know that the way this world is set up you can never be a great Top Provider in the sense that you see other women praised." But isn't that the same thing they would have told Obama? Look what happened.
And
Elli King is really doing well, she is my Escort Idol, You can tell how much her hard work pays off. Her whole presentation is mesmerizing.
I do need to find something else to pour myself into and care about so much like I do my profession. I need to work on that for sure! You Tiffany are a wise woman for sure and I appreciate you taking out the time to give me that heart felt advice. It did really make me feel better.