soul searching

The past couple of weeks has been a serious wakening experience for me and has me questioning many aspects of why me and the role i have in the hobby.
Joining the hobby a year ago was for a variety of reasons. One for the companionship and just someone to visit with hang out and enjoy the company to improve my quality of life and hopefully I improve theirs as well. As everyone knows that for me especially this hobby hasn't just been about the one thing I actually enjoy the company of the ladies and feel I've made some very dear friends Along the way.
I always have and always will preach treating everyone with the deepest respect and consideration of the feelings of those we meet.
With this in mind I find myself at a crossroad do I continue or change paths.. Maybe take a break from being an active patron in the hobby.
I'll still visit in the forums but am not going to actively search for providers.
With my old friends when they visit if they wish to take in a meal or coffee great but I seriously need to back away for a while.
I have truly enjoyed the friendships I've made here I am sure this will change in the future but for now.