I actually.... really.... " .....DID THIS AGAIN ? " ...

warning... not in the mood for hateful replies.. so if you don't DO me.. don't read me. thank you in advance.


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If you have ever said that to yourself, then you are one of my kind. I think I have a boot that walks behind me and kicks me in the ass...; occasionally, I'm lying down when it gets hit by the 'WTF IS WRONG WITH HER" BRICK... and it kicks me in places I don't even rent out.

Of late.. I seem to be stuck in that zone. Hence.. as useless and abnoxious as most of my threads end up or begin being.... this one is actually important to my mental health.. my ability to exist... etc. So please..if you must make fun.. do it in another venue... tiered X 32... so deep that I can't see it. I've been beat up mentally just about all anyone could ever be expected to be.

Apologies if I've ever been rude to any of you... inappropriate to your voice, your text ( not so much, though)... or YOU.... I try not to be. I try to be everyone's hot thang.... or whatever you like... but i'm struggling with a lot now.. and .. I suppose... what my real PLOT here is.. is to find kindred spirits... helpful hands.. and some suggestions on HOW I STOP doing the same thing over and over again.. expecting different results. This IS HOBBY related... SO you may feel it belongs in an ALTERNATE forum... but i'm not clairvouyant enough to know which one...



THANKS.. AND THANKS TO EVERYONE HERE WHO UNDERSTAND EMPATHY, SYMPATHY, FUN, AND ....well... its something they haven't made a word yet for.. but many of you get it.

thank you.. from the bottom and the top of my missing cup.

!Jayne!:mf_seehearspeak :

your ok..

Please take good care of yourself Jayne.

I just found a way to use my 400th post for the good.

We all have our demons, we all struggle with forces we can't control. Know that you are not alone - know that you're a good person.

I wish for you not just a path forward, but the very best.

There are people out here that care. Be strong.

i think we have all felt that way at times, i know i have. we have made it this far and we have to be strong to do what we do and deal with some of the crap we deal with. you will be okay.

Awesome way to use your 400th post MT

Best wishes Jayne, there are people out here that care.

Jayne, good luck and know that there are a lot of people out here who care, are pulling for you, and willing to help or if needed, just be there to hold your hand and listen. Best of luck, both today and down the road of life ... Hope it leads you to happiness.

Jayne - I'm all for you girl. And I'm glad I met ya. I enjoyed every minute of our time together including all the time playing with your new pics. You're doing good, girl. Hang in there.

..'WTF IS WRONG WITH HER" BRICK... and it kicks me in places I don't even rent out.
Originally Posted by _Jayne_

That is the best line I have read all day.

I must say, Jayne, you have an amazing mind. I have read your posts. Although they sometimes seem a bit crazy, I can tell how your mind works. Such a beautiful mess! (In a good way.)

If you don't already, I suggest that you write some poetry to help get some of that all out. I don't think you would have any problem at all in getting some stuff published. I would be interested in reading it. If you aren't too shy, go read some at those poetry reading places and maybe meet a few new friends. Your way with words is very unique.

Just a suggestion, I hope you all the best.

"A study in the Washington Post says that women have better verbal skills than men. I just want to say to the authors of that study: 'Duh." — Conan O'Brien

I've never had the honor of meeting you and have no idea what you are going though Jayne - but if your words are a refelection of your strength and passion - then I think the Infamous BJ is on to something...Write, even if it's just for yourself. Sometimes a god deal of healing comes from just pouring your thoughs onto the paper.

Peace,
~j {aka papa smurf}

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." — Maya Angelou

Best wishes

BJ I agree. That line made me fall in love with her.

Hey, PM if you want to talk it through. I'm stuck in SE Asia for at least another two weeks and while the night life isn't so hot here, I'm wireless!!! But, look, if you've got the brass to let it out in a public forum, you can get through it. Lots of very good folks wishing you well in this thread, and that's not nothing.

Also, check out this video:

"How to be Alone" by Tanya Davis.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7X7s...ayer_embedded#

It is so beautiful, I promise you will fall in love with it.

Hey girl, take sometime off and go somewhere for a few days vacation alone if you like! Just have fun without any work... get it out of your system, you will feel much better when you come back!