This will be multiple shades of corny, but I need to do it. So indulge me if you can’t just ignore it. I’m thinking mass apathy will rule the day here and this thread will die a relatively quick death. I’ve done very few things on this board purely for the attention, so I hope I get some understanding.
I’m leaving the hobby and I wanted to say goodbye publicly. I joke to myself that the last four years were my cute little “wine and women” phase of my life, and I was just having a little fun, but I’ve never hobbied for the right reasons. Now I find myself coping with what I realize is a bitter end. I’ve been a man at war with myself, jeopardizing everything important for… for basically nothing. I won’t lie, I’ve had fun and met some amazing people. If you knew the real life me, you’d be shocked that I had this in me, and I’m strangely proud of that. But I hurt some people by doing this, and in both this world and the real world I can feel myself spiraling downward into darkness and villainy. I have to regain control. I learned things about myself during this phase, and I’ve gotten to know a liar, a fraud, a coward, and even a passive aggressive bitch inside of me that I didn’t even know was there. This hobby is amazing, but when you do this with the wrong motive, it can go sideways eventually. I hope that my last few reviews positively impacted the site and contributed to those particular escorts’ livelihood.
I’m also watching another close family member die, and I have an alcohol problem that’s bigger than me and isn’t just gonna go away. Sorry if that’s too real. But I’ve never been a board persona. If you’ve ever met me, you met ME. And every guy I met from this board in RL, and every woman who was unfortunate enough to see my narrow black ass naked probably had some kind of positive impact. I’ve thanked and apologized to some of you privately, but without naming names, I sincerely want to thank everyone here that has ever shared a moment with me. You brought me joy, made me smile, and you were probably more of a blessing than you realize.
My apologies again for the cheesiness of this, but I have to take the high road out of here.
Be well, everyone...