So, I got into the hobby after my separation from my wife. I have perhaps seen 4 ladies over the year after the divorce several years ago. I have been in a monogamous relationship with a woman I married for the last 3 years. Following the death of my mom, I got depressed. I just did not have the desire for sex. It was affecting my relationship with my wife. On a business trip, I reached out to one of the providers I had seen previously. We agreed to meet one night when I was in town.
After the deed was done, condom used, she left... And I felt no more confident.
2 days later I noticed a polyp on the bottom of the shaft of my penis. 4 weeks later and I have herpes. The pain from the sore is minimal. The fatigue, muscle aches are exhausting.
This weekend I tell my wife.
This is my mea culpa. I have tried to justify my action initially as doing it for me marriage, but that is a joke. I was selfish and careless... Would I feel the same way had I not got an STD. I do not know. I would like to think so... But that is wishful thinking.
We all know the hobby can be dangerous. I just never expected it to happen to me. And unlike a cash and dash... This will affect me every day for the rest of my life... And far worse, that of my wife.
I simply want to forward this to all that hobby. Know what you risk.